The Sinner’s Gratitude Prayer

(Originally posted on Rebelle Society. I added the images.)

Summer’s Bare-Breasted Blessing: The Sinner’s Gratitude Prayer.

by Danielle Dulsky

Bless me, Mother, for I have sinned. It’s been only moments since my last confession, for I fully declare — and wholeheartedly relish — these sins with every breath I take.

I repent nothing as I sit bare-breasted with you and my sisters, our bellies growling at the harvest spread before us. The table in our Summer Kitchen is layered with fruitful abundance under this waxing Blessing Moon, and my Witch’s heart is full of wild gratitude for my many sins.

Mother, let me say Grace. Let me offer the most truthful thanksgiving I know.

I will look to you, wolf-women of my blood-line, with starry eyes and open legs. Mother, let me speak of my immense and overwhelming gratitude, lest it swallow me whole in an emerald green ocean of torrential reverence. Light the candles and bow your heads with me in the purest devotion to our wild spirituality and sacred, unruined souls. Roll your tongues on your teeth, then lick your lips. For all of our sins and what we are about to receive, may we be truly thankful.


Our Mother, who art pulsing beneath our bare feet in the muddy Earth, hallowed be thy Name. From my womb to yours, thank you for my transgressions, for they have made me the woman I am today. Thank you for all of the times I succumbed to temptation and loved every minute of it. Thank you for the heat of passion, and raw, unapologetic desire. Thank you for coloring my world with the bright light of spirit and the ruby red darkness of soul.

Daniella Cotreau
Daniella Cotreau performance Puja

For my wounded humanity, and my bumpy, raised scars left by ego-softening betrayals, you have my undying gratitude.

Bless my holy anger, righteous grief, and sacred ecstasy. Thank you for erotic innocence and the purity of sexual union. Thy reign will come, and thy feminine will be done, on Earth as it is in the celestial realm of the Shiva-Shakti stars, burning in sacred fusion. Thank you for both the sin of divination — that I first committed when I hid tarot cards under my pink, lacy bed — and the Great Mystery that shocks and tantalizes me every day.


Thank you for vibrant visions of graven images and cluttered altars, the smell of burning sage, the feeling of hot, lusty breath on my neck, the sound of my own heart-drum, and the taste of salty, summer sweat.

Give us this day our daily magick. May we see as much of the beauteous miracle of life-giving prana in the unsplit seed as we do in the eyes of a newborn baby. May we dig our fingers deeply in your loam and smear fertile mud on our thighs. May we shake our hips together in divine revelry, and worship whomever we goddamn please. Forgive us when we trespass against our authenticity, as we forgive others in order to liberate ourselves from the cage of stagnant rage.

Earthly Mother, gift us with both empathy and strong boundaries. We have burned our shame at the stake, and we suffer the Witch to live with every sweet inhale. Lead us into temptation with swords drawn and wild hair flying, for we will not be caged by another’s morality any longer. Deliver us from guilt, for our spirituality is ancient and nature-born.


Ours is the Queen’s realm, the power, and the glory, forever. Ours is the fierce feminine truth. We call in abundance and guiltless grace every morning, and live more fully knowing of our bodies’ fragile impermanence. We welcome life and death with every inhale and exhale. Mother, you are alive in us, as we are in you. We pray to you to honor who we are, and we thank you for holding us close to your soft bosom when we weep for your loss and hope for your return.

Under this Blessing Moon, we nourish our swelling bellies and beaming hearts. We drink the blood of the Dark Goddess, and eat the hearty bread of sacred feminine. Our holy communion is taken within a Circle cast strong by the four directions, and we wear robes of wormy dirt, grey water, and white-hot flame.

Thank you for making me of this wild Earth, and for those strong ones who hold my shaking hands while I walk through valleys ruled by my own ugly shadow. Thank you for seeing me home to myself over and over again when I get lost in the muck of false identities and others’ projected pain. Earthly Mother, thank you for sitting at this table with me — not above me, but with me.

My sisters and I sit in starving judgment of ourselves no longer, for you have offered us the most sensual, juicy medicine for our shame.

Yoni Puja

Sisters, let us sink our teeth deeply into our bounty! Let the wine run in crimson rivulets down your chin and shun your manners! This is the feast of the Blessing Moon before Summer begins to wane, and here at our table, we are grateful for our sins — they have made us who we are, and who we are is fucking perfect.

In Her name we pray, Amen.

Danielle Dulsky is a longtime activist for wild woman spirituality and the divine feminine’s return. She is the author of the soon-to-be published Woman Most Wild: Liberating the Witch Within (coming May 2017, publisher New World Library) and is on a mission to inspire women to be fearless creators of their sacred work. She holds the highest designation from Yoga Alliance as an E-RYT 500, is the founder of the fully accredited Living Mandala Yoga teacher training programs, and believes in holistic healing for the sensual, creative, and spiritual self. Her work is grounded in holding space for women to harvest their inner Priestess through personally relevant movement alchemy, intuitive artistic practice, and divine feminine spirituality. Danielle leads women circles, Witchcraft workshops, energy healing trainings, and basic (200-hour) and advanced (300-hour) Yoga teacher trainings in Phoenixville, Pennsylvania. She believes that all women alive today are meant to be instrumental in supporting positive social transformation through wild woman spirituality, reclamation of the name Witch, and the magick of sisterhood.

Images found on Pinterest.

Love & Howls

You call yourself a Wild Woman?


You call yourself a Wild Woman?
Kali cried, that’s a lie!
In the face of fear you always shrink
And you care so much
About what people think
On that page of yours you seek to please
But truth doesn’t coddle
Truth brings you to your knees
You say what you think
They want you to say
You haven’t the courage to walk the other way
Even if no one follows
So you carry on doing
What makes you feel hollow
There won’t be any world left to save
If you keep walking the way
That’s already
Been paved
I am in a rage

kali ma9
At you
For putting your wild soul back in a cage
And you’ve let yourself fall back asleep
Now you’re lying in a hole six foot deep
You haven’t one second left to please
I am screaming from the bottom of your soul
Do you hear me?
Stare me in the face
Hear the cries of the dying world
Pick back up your sword
Be authentic with your word
Stare at me until your soul
Shakes back
Radical girl of mine
Align your spine
With the throne
And grow a golden
Back bone.

by the incomparible DOITGIRL

Love & Howls


Syringa Vulgaris ~For the Love of Lilacs~

The smell of moist earth and lilacs hung in the air like wisps of the past and hints of the future. ~Margaret Millar

I made wine from the Lilac tree. Put my heart in the recipe. It makes me see what I want to see. And be what I want to be. ~ Nina Simone


Mother Nature is a healer, and one of her most powerful gifts comes in the form of flowers. For me, there is nothing quite like the sight and sweet scent of Lilacs on the breeze. Their fragrance is instantly calming, soothing and fills me with joy. I really can’t get enough of it right now! My space is full of fresh cut blooms and I also have blossoms drying to use in my Flora & Fauna specimen vials. (visit my lil shop to get your own!)

In Flower Therapy Lilac is a wonderful calming flower that works to combat the hustle and bustle of everyday life. It is perfect for those with anxiety or depression.

Message from Lilac: “Let’s release those irritating, depressing thoughts that were constantly filling your head, and replace them with positive attitudes and feelings. You can do it, and I’m here to support you.”

Flower Therapy is based upon nature’s healing abilities, and flowers can be used to create potent healing effects.

Since the fragrance and colors of flowers extend into the energetic realm, Flower Therapy helps with metaphysical issues. It can deepen your spiritual practice and open your psychic abilities.

Lilacs are also EDIBLE! I had no idea! But am so curious now that I may just start tasting lilacs around town to find a bush that has flavours I like! And I will definitely be trying some of the recipes I have listed at the end of this post.

lilacs and sunshine

“…the smell of lilacs crept poignantly into the room like a remembered spring.” ~Margaret Millar

Keeping Cut Lilacs Fresh

If you want to enjoy some cut lilacs in your home, this is a trick to making them stay fresh. Because they are woody, you need to strip off the bark and bash the bottom; peel off the bark from the bottom 1-2 inches. Then smash the end with the butt of the knife or pruners. These steps are necessary to open up the woody structure enough for water to be taken up. I have never tried this technique personally, I usually just cut and place in a vase. But supposedly it works and the lilacs will stay vibrant for weeks!

The spring is fresh and fearless
And every leaf is new,
The world is brimmed with moonlight,
The lilac brimmed with dew.

Here in the moving shadows
I catch my breath and sing –
My heart is fresh and fearless
And over-brimmed with spring.

Sara Teasdale
purple altar
Purple Altar

Lilac Magical attributes: Protection, banishing rituals, beauty, love, flirtation, harmony and balance.

Representations: Feminine, Venus, Air, Water

Lilac (Sci. Name: Syringa Vulgaris) is a bush/small tree with amazing protective properties and it is the reminder of life. In folk medicine lilac flowers were used to treat kidney disease and the smell is widely used in many perfumes. Although (sadly) because of the difficulty in extracting the scent molecules from lilac flowers, and because the process is very expensive, Lilac “oil” that’s available commercially is very rarely real Lilac and likely “fragrance” mixed from other ingredients, with no actual lilac in it.

Lilac’s most noticeable magical quality is that it can drive away ghosts instantly! (things that make you go hmmm…). The tree is linked with reincarnation and life and one of the secrets and wonders of Lilac is that its flowers do not fade under hot water.

You can add lilac in these rituals for extra potency.

Use Lilac in spells/rituals (magical properties):

  • To remove ghosts
  • For protection
  • To bring positive energy
  • To explore past lives
  • To remind yourself and others the divine gift of life
  • For blessing the life passage (birth and death)
  • That aim to bring you the pleasures of life

This is the flower you want when you are looking for a short fling. Use in spells where flirtation is desired without the goal of a long-term or serious relationships. Lilac keeps things light and uncomplicated. Spray the oil in rooms as an air freshener that will lighten the mood for party guests.

Lilacs are also known to drive away evil. Plant lilacs bush around your property to rid it of evil and to protect it from evil. Lilacs placed in the home can also help rid it of evil spirits.


 Lilac Flirtation Spell (take as you will…;)

Let’s bring out the flirt in you!

Perform this spell just before a social engagement or even a date, when you want to feel particularly attractive. This is also a great spell for a couple looking to add a little spark back into their relationship.

Spell Work Supplies:

Patchouli Incense

Red Candle


Lilac Water

Spray Bottle


Light the incense and bring your thoughts to your purpose.

Light your red candle and feel yourself becoming more lively and attractive. See yourself surrounded by fun and flirty company, making yourself attractive yourself to those you seek.

Once you feel your energy begin to rise, pour your Lilac water into your spray bottle. Cap the bottle and hold it in your hands. Through your hands infuse the bottle with all the sexual, flirtatious, and lusty energy you can conjure.

When you feel your energy wane, place the bottle on your table and relax. Ground yourself if necessary.

Finally, spray the Lilac water over your head allowing it to sprinkle down onto you. Do this just before your date or social gathering.

lilac tree
Lilacs in my backyard

Serves: 2
1 cup coconut milk beverage or canned coconut milk
1 – 2 tablespoons edible lavender flowers or about 100 lilac florets (depending on how strong you want the flavor)
2 bananas, peeled, chopped and frozen
natural sweetener (maple syrup, honey, etc) to taste, if desired
Add coconut milk and lavender to a small saucepan and bring to a boil. Remove from heat and stir thoroughly. Let steep, covered, for 20 – 25 minutes.
Strain mixture, reserving milk and discarding lavender. Pour into a freezer-safe container and freeze for several hours or overnight.
Once frozen, break apart the frozen coconut milk into chunks and add to a food processor. Add the chopped frozen banana. Process until the mixture is smooth and creamy, adding additional sweeteners if desired. This will create a creamy “soft serve.” If you want harder “ice cream,” put the mixture into the freezer for 15 – 20 minutes to harden, then scoop and serve!

More Lilac Recipes:

Lilac Scones

Lilac flower sorbet

Lilac Jelly

Super easy Lilac Honey

For the adventurous: Lilac Wine

Edible Flowers Chart

Kiss me with love like a butterfly kisses flowers to drink in the nectar of life.

InJoy and sweetness,

Love & Howls 





“Your darkness is what affords you light.

It is our teacher, our guide, our parent full of tough love – with harsh tendencies, but sometimes it takes us a long fucking while to learn the same lesson. Shit I would kick my ass too.

Trying to rise above our shadow will only achieve more suffering and dissonance, distancing ourselves from what we truly desire; connection, wholeness, unity, peace, all that love and light bliss.

Our shadow demands respect and longs for our love. It asks for us to listen and learn.

So that we can evolve.

The only way out is through.

By embracing our dark we liberate our light.

Our shadow is our biggest teacher.

It is just misunderstood.

Full article can be found at:

Love & Howls


Doe, A Deer, A Female Deer: The Spirit of Mother Christmas

A beautiful piece I came across about the Deer Mother. She is a Totem of mine and offers a powerful life giving, loving message for this time of year.

Gather Victoria


In the old nature religion (in which the divine was often perceived as feminine) it was the female horned reindeer who reigned supreme as the great goddess of the winter solstice. It was when we “Christianized” the pagan traditions of winter, that the white bearded man i.e. “Father Christmas” was born.
Today he chariots Rudolph and his steed of flying reindeer across our mythical skies and we have forgotten the power of the Deer Mother, the female horned Reindeer. Stronger and larger than the buck, it is she who leads the herds.

And it is her beloved image that adorns the Christmas cards and Yule decorations we are so familiar with today. Because, unlike the male who sheds his antlers in winter, it is the Deer Mother, who carries the life-giving sun safely through winter’s darkest, longest night in her horns. stag2 Across the North, since the Neolithic, from the British…

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Maha Navratri ~ Nine Nights of the Divine Mother

How amazing would it be to experience and witness millions of devotees all honoring the many faceted Divine Mother?! To live in a country (while not without it’s problems) where worship of the Divine Feminine is prominent and public and Her importance and power in our lives is acknowledged and honored. THIS is why I love Maha Navratri. While I honor Her within me everyday, I love knowing that I am adding my energy to a collective conscious of sublime worship and passionate devotion.


“There are 64 divine mother impulses which govern the subtle creation. These are responsible for restoring all earthly and spiritual benefits. They are simply part of one’s awakened consciousness. These nine nights are celebrated to rekindle those divine impulses and celebrate the innermost depth of our lives.”

~Sri Sri

Significance of Navaratri
The beginning of spring and the beginning of autumn are two very important junctions of climatic lunar and solar influence. These two periods are taken as sacred opportunities for the worship of the Divine Mother, when everything in nature starts undergoing transformation. These nine nights are said to be precious as there are subtle energies in the creation that are enriched at this time of the year. These energies enhance and assist the experience of going inwards, making prayer, chanting and other spiritual practices more fruitful. The dates of the festival are determined according to the Hindu (lunar) calendar; this year October 13th-22nd.

Navratri is a Hindu festival of worship and dance. The word Navratri literally means nine nights in Sanskrit; Nava meaning Nine and Ratri meaning nights. During these nine nights and ten days, nine forms of Shakti (metaphor for goddess Durga ) i.e. female divinity are worshipped.

Shardiya Navratri is the most important Navratri and is hence called Maha Navratri or Great Navratri. Celebrations of Maha Navratri are vast and varied. Navratri is one of the most important Hindu celebrations that honors Shakti / the Divine Feminine/Mother. It is celebrated twice a year; once in Chaitra (March-April) and the other in Ashwin (September-October). This is a time to honour the Divine Feminine and to look to her for spiritual cleansing, guidance, and enlightenment.

The energy, which is the womb of the entire creation, which has given birth to all that is,is called Devi, or Divine Mother. Everything in this creation, your body, mind, intellect, ego; the physical and subtle energies, are all the manifestation of the one energy into many different forms. And this one energy is called Devi or Shakti.

During the nine nights and ten days of Navratri, the three forms of the Devi (Durga, Lakshmi, and Saraswati) are invoked, honored and celebrated, within and without.

The nine days are divided into three with devotees all across the country worshipping Maa Durga (Goddess of power), Maa Lakshmi (Goddess of wealth & prosperity) and Maa Saraswati (Goddess of knowledge).

Each set of nights also corresponds with a particular spiritual goal and task.


The first set of nights are spent meditating upon the Divine Feminine in her powerful and destructive aspect known as Durga; The Warrior Goddess. In the presence of Durga Shakti, negative forces fade away. She transforms negativity into positivity.


Durga is also referred to as ‘Jaya Durga’ or the one who brings victory.

Durga is associated with red. She is depicted as wearing a red saree. Red is color of dynamism – the ‘moving’ energy. You may be trained and skilled, but if you are not able to move things, people, and efforts in unison, then the results are delayed, and you can’t be effective. When you pray to Durga, she brings forth dynamism in you to make things move.

When you have obstacles or mental blocks, just remembering these qualities of the Devi can remove your mental blocks. For people suffering from anxiety, self-doubt, fear, simply chanting the names of the Devi can elevate your consciousness and make you more centered, courageous and composed.
We ask the goddess to help us identify and eliminate those aspects of our self that are not helpful, skillful, or productive, such as greed, envy, procrastination, laziness, lying, gossiping, etc. We also ask her to protect our spiritual practice from its many dangers and pitfalls.


The second set of nights are spent meditating upon the Divine Mother in her spiritual wealth-giving aspect know as Lakshmi; The Goddess of Wealth. Wealth is a vital ingredient bestowed upon us for the maintenance and progress in our life. It is much more than just having money. It means abundance in knowledge, skills and talents, as well as Spiritual abundance.


  Lakshmi is the energy that manifests as the complete spiritual and material well-being of a person.

There are eight aspects to this divine energy that may be bestowed upon us:

  • Adi Lakshmi: Is the memory of the source. When we forget that we are part of the entire creation, we feel small and insecure. Adi Lakshmi is that aspect which connects us to our source, thus bringing strength and calmness to the mind.
  • Dhana Lakshmi: Is the aspect of material wealth.
  • Vidya Lakshmi: Is the aspect of knowledge, skills and talents.
  • Dhanya Lakshmi: Manifests as wealth in the form of food. It is said that we become what we eat. The right amount of food and right type of food, eaten at the right time and place, affects the body and mind positively.
  • Santana Lakshmi: Manifests as wealth in the form of progeny and creativity. People full of creativity, skills, and talents are bestowed with this aspect of Lakshmi.
  • Dhairya Lakshmi: Manifests as wealth in the form of courage.
  • Vijaya Lakshmi: Is the aspect that manifests as victory.
  • Bhagya Lakshmi Is the aspect of good luck and prosperity.

At different stages in life, different aspects manifest in a person. For example, Dhairya Lakshmi may make a person courageous, but without Vijaya Lakshmi, one would not be victorious. So on the three days dedicated to Devi Lakshmi, we pray to the Divine Mother to bestow us with all these aspects of wealth. We ask the goddess to help us develop and maintain helpful qualities, such as patience, forgiveness, compassion, loving-kindness, and integrity.


The third set of nights are spent meditating upon the Divine Feminine in her spiritual wisdom-bestowing aspect known as Sarasvati. The Goddess of Knowledge and the Arts, the one who gives the essence (Saara) Self (Swa).

saraswati maa

Saraswati plays the veena, a musical instrument the mellifluous notes of which bring harmony and peace to the mind. Similarly, spiritual knowledge brings relaxation and celebration into one’s life.

Her vehicle is a swan. It is said that if a mixture of milk and water is given to a swan, it will drink just the milk. This symbolizes the power of discrimination (viveka), using which we must take the positive from life and leave the negative.

There are peacocks accompanying the Devi. A peacock dances and displays its glorious colors just before the rains, and not all the time. This energy of the divine gives one the ability to express the right knowledge in the right atmosphere, and at the right time.

Devi Saraswati is the consciousness which vibrates with different types of learning. She is the source of spiritual light, remover of all ignorance and the source of knowledge.

We ask the goddess to help us to achieve self-realization and understand universal truths such as our divine nature and the interconnectedness of living beings

The tenth day is spent offering gratitude to the Divine Mother and is spent celebrating in a state of sat-chit-ananda or Truth-Consciousness-Bliss.

Practices to Honour These Days of the Divine Mother:

  • Chant the mantra “Om Bhavani” (“In the Name of the Divine Mother”) throughout the nine days.• Practice a breathing meditation; alternate nostril breathing would work well. As you inhale, say the quality you are trying to cultivate; as you exhale, the quality you are trying to let go of. For example, on the inhale, I might say, “Breathing in Compassion” and on the exhale I might say, “Breathing out Criticism.”

    • Take time each of the nine days or at least once every three days to focus on the three aspects of the divine feminine that are within you and the corresponding spiritual tasks.

Days 1 – 3: Focus on your inner power and strength. (Root, Sacral, Navel chakra)

Write down qualities or habits you wish to let go of. Pick one of these and practice letting it go.

Days 4 – 6: Focus on your inner life-giving force and nurturer. (Heart, Throat chakra)

Write down the qualities or habits you wish to cultivate. Pick one of these and practice incorporating it.

Days 7 – 9: Focus on your inner wisdom and guide. (3rd eye, Crown, Aura)

Write down the spiritual teachings you wish to learn or better understand. Pick one and read an inspiring book or article about it.

If you have to lift your hand, it requires certain energy, certain strength for something to happen. So, this whole universe is governed by Shakti and tapping into this Shakti is what Navratri is all about. And Pooja (worship) and spiritual practices are a means of tapping into this Shakti. So during the nine nights of Navratri, the Devi is worshipped in all Her names and forms.

May Maha Devi bless you in all her forms and may you recognize Her in all of yours.

Jai Ma!

~Love & Howls

for those who howl at the moon…

An integral part of thewildreclaiming is first and foremost finding the time to Howl at the Moon. Literally. Much of my intent with this blog is to share actual experiences, ideas, rituals and inspirations. So, please know that what I offer here is true and authentic. Has been inspiring to me in some way, and in sharing it I hope it is to you too. So if and when I say I have Howled at the Moon, or I suggest that you do too, I mean get outside, find some space, plant your feet in the earth, or get on all fours (yep!) tilt your head back and let out a gorgeous and gutterall full.body.HOWL. Trust me on this. I’ve done it. Lead others through it (it’s how I end my Full Moon Yoga/Dance/Trance/Ceremonies); and while hesitant at first needless to say it gets pretty wild once they found their Wolf. And isn’t that what we’re here for? I know I am.

The second integral part of thewildreclaiming is staying open to inspiration, Allways. I am infinitely inspired on a daily basis, from a myriad of sources but mostly I am slayed by words. I am a word fiend. I consume well written words like a famished creature. Quotes, poems, haiku’s, powerful one liners or even just powerful words on their own. I eat that shit up. And if you are one of those sexy beasts who reaches down to the depths of your soul to conjure up beautiful words that take hold of mine, only to tear it out and leave me gasping for breath, and more, in a heap on the floor…well then, I adore you. Can we make out? Seriously though, can we? Okay, Okay…anyway. So, all that to say, today I offer you some words from one of my favorite howlers and sexy beast: Jeanette LeBlanc. I fell in love with her words some moons ago and believe that beautiful words need to be shared. So, every now and then I will be sharing such things. I am also a fiend for dark and beautiful images, which I have also included. ~InJoy

“This is for the ones who howl at the moon.

This is for the ones who sing the song of the wolves.

This is for those that hear and heed the call.

For the wild ones. The untamable. The unashamed.


This is for the truth seekers, the wisdom speakers. Those who can see.

This is for those who know their want as holy.

The ones who have learned to embody their own divinity and intimately know their connection to all things.


This is for the ones who speak straight and clear and true.

Who court the shadows and dance with the muse.

Who seduce, who stake claim, who look you straight in the eye without wavering.

The ones who know exactly what they are worth.

This is for the ones who speak their truth and write the terms of their own existence.

The ones who lay claim to the wilderness, who beg, who burn, who ache, who bleed.

This is for the ones who speak incantation and trust the gut wisdom and the red-hot blood that pounds in their veins.

This is for those who are called relentless. Who are labeled too much. Who are called the names they have called women like us since the beginning of time.

Witch. Enchantress. Sorceress.

Who are shunned who are shamed who are burned.

This is for those who have burned so many times they no longer fear the fire.

This is for those who have learned to rise


This is for the ones who have survived.

This is for the ones who, when pushed against the wall, do not cower, but run – for the mountain, for the forest, for the sea.

This is for those who need freedom like most need air.

For the ones whose hearts sing far off train-whistle lonely. Who crave the edge and the burn of the needle, of the knife, of the sweet hit of what tastes like craving. Who like to dance at the edge where danger lives.


This is for those who honor their intuition and the ancestors and the wisdom that lives on the wind.

This is for those with appetite. Those who refuse to be satisfied with less than whole. The ones with cravings that lead them to hunt and prowl and ask and know.

This is for the insatiable.

This is for the ones who raise their young as warriors on a path of truth. Who are tied to tribal wisdom. Who honor the pack but do not bend to its will.


This is for those that hear the rhythm of the earth snare drum steady in their bones.

This is for those who light the candles, who call the ancients, who speak in wild whisper under the light of the blood red hunters moon.


This is for the ones who own their fierce and their bite and their hunger.

This is for the seduced becoming seductress, for hunted claiming her place as hunter.

For those that have fought long and hard for agency and ownership and who have refused all the rest.

For those who have crossed the killing fields to get to where they are.

For the ones that bring you to your knees with just a touch.

For those who know their power. Who honor their truth. Who give voice to their desire.


For those who cannot be contained. Who must live uncaged. Who will never be subdued.

This is for the ones who howl at the moon.

This is for you.

This is how I honor you.”

by: Jeanette LeBlanc

*NOTE: Just for the record howling isn’t just for Full Moons. In fact Wolves and Wild things don’t actually howl “at the Moon” so to speak. They do however howl to assemble their pack, attract a mate, mark territory, scare off enemies, signal alarm, or communicate their position. Sometimes they howl when they wake up in the morning, like humans yawning during a stretch. They howl to to indicate restlessness, anxiety, stress, frustration, loneliness, and excitement. In essence they howl to express themselves! (*hint hint*) Which of course can and often does happen during a glorious Full Moon, or on any given day. So I encourage you to Howl your heArt out like the Wild thing you are…today, and every day.

~Love & Howls

Wild Wisdom: of Wolves and Women

“I call her Wild Woman, for those very words, wild and woman, create llamar o tocar a la puerta, the fairy-tale knock at the door of the deep feminine psyche. Llamar o tocar a la puerta means literally to play upon the instrument of the name in order to open a door. It means using words that summon up the opening of a passageway. No matter by which culture a woman is influenced, she understands the words wild and woman, intuitively.” ~Clarissa Pinkola Estés

Photo by Lilli Waters

It’s no coincidence that recently while going through some books I find my (beloved) copy of “Women Who Run With the Wolves” by Dr. Clarissa Pinkola Estés. I have been hearing the call to revisit it once again as I journey down this path of the wild reclaiming.

The dictionary describes “Wild” as: in a state of nature; not tamed or domesticated: or growing in the natural environment; not domesticated or cultivated.

3.uncivilized, uncontrolled or unrestrained, especially in pursuit of pleasure.

I say: yes. Yes. YES. to all of the above! These are qualities and environments in which ALL living creatures thrive. Pleasure defined is: a feeling of happy satisfaction and enjoyment. Yes please. What creature does not crave happiness or joy? I will definitely pursue my happiness in an unrestrained manner. It is the only way, as I see it.

When I contemplate the meaning of “Wild” and what that means to me I inevitably conjure that which would (by the above definition) be taboo, unorthodox and unrestrained to civilized society. Images and thoughts of burning fires, sage and cigars. Of adorning myself in earth and ash. Sacred chants, dance and trance. Midnight conversations with the Ancestors and Animal Spirits. Nakedness (physical and emotional). Moonbathing. Channeling my Wolf. Howling at the Moon. These are the places where I choose to roam. These are the places that beckon me home…to my Wild Nature.

Photo by Lilli Waters

When you hear the word Wild, what is stirred in you? What claws at your sternum to be let out? What howls in your heart in the dark of night? What wants to be brought back to life? It is covered in moss and earth. For She is old. An old, old memory of our absolute, undeniable, and irrevocable kinship with the wild feminine. We may have forgotten her names, we may not have answered when she calls ours, but in our blood and bones we know her, we yearn for her; we know she belongs to us and we to her…

But much like the wolf, She has been pushed to the brink of extinction. The Wild Nature, the innate powers of Womanhood have been driven from their natural habitat. Once visible and as commonplace as your Shadow in the light of day, for many the Wild Nature has been driven deep within. But there is still time. She can yet be summoned as a tool in a fight for your own Wild survival.

Dr. Estes defined wildness as not uncontrolled behavior
but a kind of savage creativity, the instinctual ability
to know what tool to use and when to use it…

Photo by Lilli Waters
Photo by Lilli Waters

Dr. Estes found the wolf-woman parallel while studying wildlife biology, in particular, Wolves. “Wolves and women are relational by nature, inquiring, possessed of great endurance and strength,” she writes. “They are deeply intuitive, intensely concerned with their young, their mate and their pack.” “Yet both have been hounded, harassed and falsely imputed to be devouring and devious, overly aggressive, of less value than those who are their detractors.”

“A healthy woman is much like a wolf: robust, chock-full, strong life force, life-giving, territorially aware, inventive, loyal, roving.”
Clarissa Pinkola Estés

“The way to maintain one’s connection to the wild is to ask yourself what it is that you want. This is the sorting of the seed from the dirt. One of the most important discriminations we can make in this matter is the difference between things that beckon to us and things that call from our souls. Nowhere can this be seen more clearly than in the choice of mates and lovers. A lover cannot be chosen a la smorgasbord. A lover has to be chosen from soul-craving. To choose just because something mouthwatering stands before you will never satisfy the hunger of the soul-self. And that is what the intuition is for; it is the direct messenger of the soul.”

This Wisdom is so profound. I have tears as I read it because it speaks of such truth. And the truth is that a part of me wishes it wasn’t so true. I have been to the smorgasbord. I enjoy a smorgasbord. I have chosen because what was standing before me made my mouth was water. I enjoy a mouthwatering morsel. But am I still hungry…Yes. Famished.


And therein lies the Medicine. The very hard to swallow Medicine.

We will often sacrifice what we truly want for what we want right now. This is true for all types of hunger. The key is deciphering and being honest about what it is that we truly hunger for. And what will nourish and sustain us body, mind and soul.

wolf love

There is human time, and there is wild time.”
~Clarissa Pinkola Estés~

“These transient “tastes of the wild” come during the mystique of inspiration–ah, there it is; oh, now it has gone. The longing for her comes when one happens across someone who has secured this wildish relationship. The longing comes when one realizes one has given scant time to the mystic cookfire or to the dreamtime, too little time to one’s own creative life, one’s life work or one’s true loves.

Yet it is these fleeting tastes which come both through beauty as well as loss, that cause us to become so bereft, so agitated, so longing that we eventually must pursue the wildish nature. Then we leap into the forest or into the desert or into the snow and run hard, our eyes scanning the ground, our hearing sharply tuned, searching under, searching over, searching for a clue, a remnant, a sign that she still lives, that we have not lost our chance. And when we pick up the trail, it is typical of women to ride hard to catch up, to clear off the desk, clear off the relationship, clear out one’s mind, turn to a new page, insist on a break, break the rules, stop the world, for we are not going on without her any longer.”

Photo by Lilli Waters

We are all filled with a longing for the Wild. This is a truth that is unsettling, within some and within society. We are taught to feel shame for such a desire. That such a desire does not quite fit into civilized society. Nor will you should you wish to pursue Her.

But I desperately hope you do. For She is your instinct and your intuition incarnate. She is your birthright and She knows you better than anyone and has your best interests at heart. She is the Alpha in you. She’s got your back. She is part of your pack.

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The Shadow of Wild Woman will forever lurk behind us during our days and in our nights. Awaiting your howl to welcome her home. No matter where we are, the shadow that trots behind us is definitely four-footed.

~Love & Howls

*Photos of Woman & Wolves are part of a photo series by Lilli Waters entitled Black Sunday.
“Black Sunday uncovers the unsettling and beautiful similarity between wild women and wolves, both relational by nature and intensely concerned with their young, their mate, and their pack.

The wild feminine in our over domesticated culture may have been buried, but underneath we are aware that she remains much like that of the wolf; a strong life force, life-giving, aware, loyal and roving.”

New M)O(n Monday…

“Say it. Do it. Be it. Be not afraid of it.”

“If it’s in your heart it can be in your life. If it’s a part of your soul, it’s your duty to bring it into being. If it’s something that you just can’t live without, you should dedicate the next two years to bringing it into form.”

“…birthing anything into being is a process of expansion and contraction. You’ve got to be willing to lose your original shape. You will become a different person. You’ve got to make room for it. Your life will be rearranged. You might feel infringed upon. Your own wants might become secondary to what you need to do.”

“Put your pipe dreams in your pipe and smoke them with a prayer. Send your dreams to the gods and let them know you’ll do all you can to bring them into being here on earth. Communicate daily with whatever forces you feel are on your side.” ~Chani Nicholas (excerpt from my Taurus Sun/Leo Rising ‘scopes)

Zodiac-Virgo by Susan Seddon Boulet

We have just come through a fairly Cosmic weekend of a New Moon and Solar Eclipse both in the sign of Virgo. I don’t know about you but I was feeling the feels!

I felt the effects of the Dark Moon more so than the New Moon with this phase. The Dark Moon occurs about three days before the new crescent appears. The dark of the Moon is the most powerful time psychically. Dreams can be oracular and often quite intense. The longing to turn inward deepens and our shadow may come out to play. This is a profound time for healing and restful listening. A time to receive messages and embrace unfolding. Enhancing the effects of Darkness we also experienced an Eclipse. During an eclipse, the light of the sun is diminished and obscured. Life depends upon the light of the sun, as do we. When that light appears to be threatened, so too are we. Like death itself, it’s preparation for the new beginning that begins with the crescent.

My Moon just happens to be in Virgo. Where a Sun sign is considered to represent the active principals of ourselves, our Moon sign is the home of our instinctive and emotional nature. It can hold the key to the infinite potential within us. In the darkness there is light and that is where we will discover a universe of self-understanding…if we are willing. (I was perhaps less than willing.)

Virgo needs to know all the down and dirty, divine deets. Virgo tends to over thinks, over stresses, and over analyzes. Hello! Truth, much.

Historically, Virgo is the only sign of the zodiac that depicts a woman and has been associated with most of the main female deities – Ishtar, Inanna, Ceres/ Demeter, Astraea, Erigone, Isis and Mary. Each, in their own way, were virginal in that they belonged to themselves and owed allegiance to no exclusive male partner.


The sign of Virgo aids in providing what is necessary for your mental, emotional and physical expression of your hidden but ever present divinity, protecting, guarding, cherishing and nurturing your soul.

If you have a planet within the sign of Virgo, THIS is where you are being called upon to awaken to this virginal process in the areas of our life that want to be tended to, worked on, explored, opened up, explored, brought into form and made into something self sufficient.

Okay, then. I get it.

Virgo is also associated with the body and health. This is particularily poignant for me these days. I have fallen off my wagon of health and wellness. Hard. And this is taking a toll mentally & physically. My negative self talk is at an all time high and my feeling good about myself is low. But awareness is key to reclaiming my Wild Nature and deep knowing that life just flows better when we are better; to ourselves and each other. And this Moon although dark (in so many ways) shone a glaring light on what needed illumination and to be nurtured aNew. (Moon)

I hope you’ve had an illuminating weekend as well.

Here is collection of insights and observations from my favorite Cosmic Creatives! These are my go to’s on any given day to check in with ma stars.

And lastly I offer you some wise words from one of my favorite poets, a Virgo and who’s 80th Birthday just happened to be in the Dark phase of this Moon:

You do not need to be good.
You do not need to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about your despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting-
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.

~Mary Oliver~

~Love & Howls